unsaid but hopefully well written

kalau kata teman curhat teman main dan teman dekat gue yang baik dan mengunjungi gue kemaren : "ayo, tepit, berenti sebelum merasa terlalu nyaman,"
*ignore the nickname. I suddenly realize that I have sooo much nicknames when I have a so-common name

ya ya ya, berenti sebelum merasa terlalu nyaman. I will remember this one, girl. thanks for reminding me.

so now, I'm coming out from the comfort zone after all, the thing will just taking me nowhere

this is definitely such a tiring week since I have my midterm and some other problems waiting to be written in my head (but I haven't make my new diary yet so I write it on papers everywhere and the feeling's definitely different)

and then I decided to have a break from my midterm assignment and went blogwalking.

and I found this (please click to enter the contest and stand a chance to win!)

she offered a WRECK THIS JOURNAL and chocolate from England sounds like some of my favorite things in the world : a journal and england.

okaaaay, it's not like she offered a trip to England for free but chocolate from England is something I haven't taste before and so does the journal, Wreck This Journal? I used to keep mine neat and clean, so I'm totally curious about what can I do with this journal. Guess this one is one of a kind =)

I hope I can win the giveaway and successfully pass my midterm

good daaaaaay for you all!

benar-benar lagi butuh SANGAT BUTUH orang yang dengan ngeliatnya aja bisa bikin gue yakin dan percaya lagi sama apa yang selama ini gue yakini, bukannya belok sana-sini. Please, terlalu banyak contoh salah yang gue amati dan pelajari, berharap dengan begitu gue tahu mana yang salah dan mana yang harusnya gue jadikan teladan.

Mau membawa orang ke jalan yang benar itu pertama-tama kitanya yang harus bener duluan, gue harusnya inget satu hal penting itu. Nggak peduli gue sedang dalam proses menuju kebenaran itu, yang harus gue lakukan harusnya bukan menyesatkan orang lain, apalagi menyesatkan diri sendiri. Mengingatkan yang benar, walaupun hanya satu ayat itu kan ada pahalanya, ada manfaatnya. Gue memaknai itu sebagai ganjaran atas hal baik dan benar sekecil apapun itu yang gue lakukan.

To be a winner, first you have to go through the battle itself. Now, the battle runs in yourself. So there is no way back, all you have to do is stand up, face it, be brave, and win it.

jangan jadi orang lemah, jangan jadi orang bodoh.

minggu UTS menyerbuuuu =)

tugas gue belom-belom udah numpuk aja, bubarrr semua rencana nginep di rumah eyang di tengah-tengah minggu ini. rrrrr, padahal lagi pengen bangets! <-- tumben ada maket farnsworth house (arsiteknya Mies van der Rohe, nooo not Mies van der Roh, you say it mis van de' rohe tapi e nya jangan jelas-jelas banget)
maket kualitas ruangnya farnsworth house
maket 1:1 buat tugas PA
ngerjain struktur di CAD

langsung berasa hectic

tapi ini nggak seberapa fit, ayolaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! =)

ohiya, berencana mengganti desain blog tapi please, ini belom final jadi be patient and wait for the update hahahhaha maaf yaaa kalo jadi ga enak dibaca, i promise i will come back soon and... fixed it

see you soon, as soon as I can post here, just wish me a good luck!

jadi semingguan ini secara diam-diam orang-orang ini bikin kejutan untuk ulangtahunkuuu =D


seriously, sejak pagi mood gue sangat bagus, sangat sangat bagus, even sms minta ngabsenin pun nggak bikin gue jadi kesel dan badmood terus nyampe studio juga gue tenang dan senang karena nggak dinyanyiin kayak taun lalu

abis itu kita sibuk maket struktur sampe siang lalu presentasi. sorenya gue dan teman-teman berencana makan di kantin sebelum nonton lomba debat buat anak 2010 *kita menang dong hahahaha! sebelum ke kantin, gue tiba-tiba inget kalo gue lupa naro dompet, bener ajalah pas gue cari di tas dompetnya nggak ada, tapi gue masih tenang-tenang aja soalnya kayaknya menurut gue pasti ketemu eh bener kaaaan ternyata ketinggalan di meja temen gue, nah abis gue mengamankan dompet, ternyata bros kayu purezento gue yang gambarnya hisa ilaaang! Ah padahal itu bros favorit soalnya warnanya kuning =D tapi entah kenapa gue biasa aja <-- feeling bakal ketemu, ya udah akhirnya gue diemin deh tapi temen gue yang satu balik ke kosan, yang satu ngurusin anak 2010 lomba debat, yang satu ilang, yang satu lagi ada rapat, jadilah gue tinggal bertiga pergi ke kantin terus ketemu sama anak-anak satu jurusan yang lain, terus temen gue (yang difotonya kayak anak kecil pake baju merah rambut kuncir 2) dengan ribut bilang kalo dia kedinginan dan mau nonton film di laptop temen gue jadi mau pindah ke meja yang ada colokannya. Dia bilang mau nonton film, karena gue penasaran (walopun ga diajak) gue ikutan mereka pindah meja deh sekalian mesen makanan.

nggak lama makanan gue dateng, gue masih cuma bertiga sama dua temen gue yang nggak ada urusan lain, laptop temen gue itu udah kebuka, tapi masangnya flv player jadi gue pikir temen gue itu mau nonton video buatan temen gue yang udah pernah gue tonton sebelumnya. Tapi karena pengen, akhirnya gue tetep ikutan nonton.

tapi eeeeeeh ternyata itu video buat gue dong! ITU VIDEO ISINYA ORANG-ORANG NGUCAPIN SELAMAT ULANG TAHUN BUAT GUE

meeeeeeeeen so sweeeeet!

dan terakhirnya dengan sengaja temen-temen gue ini bikin anak 2010 ngucapin selamat ulang tahun ke gue abis itu temen gue bilang, "hadiahnya dong hadiahnya," yaelah ada hadiahnya segala kan gue jadi ga enak, eh ternyata hadiahnya bros hisa gue yang gue kira ilang hahahaha


terimakasih ya kawan-kawaaaaan! karena sudah bersusah payah membagi tugas buat menjauhkan gue dari studio supaya kalian bisa ngerekam, ngebiarin gue nungguin hujan sampe kira-kira satu jam lebih supaya kalian bisa bikin video di pustek, nyuruh gue sholat sampe lamaaaa, sok sok mau foto-foto di belakang bp3 padahal mau ngerekam tapi ketauan sama gue, ngerekamin senior favorit yang DEMI APA BIKIN GUE PASTI GA BERANI LAGI KETEMU SAMA ORANGNYA! nyuruh junior favorit gue ngucapin+ngembaliin si hisa yang gue kira ilang, ada juga yang sok gamau ngasih ucapan selamat ulang tahun dan demi apa gue pikir marah sama gue (tapi abis gue bilang makasih videonya langsung baik lagi :))

and to make the smile in my fave never fade today, THAAAAANKS!

i never know what will happen after I click the publish post button, but...

a friend of mine passed away not a very long time a go, in a month I should call a special one for me. That makes me think a lot more than I'm used to.

How life can just stop without notification just like on facebook, without any mention like in twitter or any reblogged post on tumblr.

the big question is after this eighteen years passed, have I done something, well, remarkable?

Not really I think, please don't count my university acceptance, I'm not talking about academic achievement here. I'm talking about myself, what have I done to make myself a real person?

Eighteen is not a small amount, and I don't really know how much year(s) I have now, but really I want to end the life delightfully, when all of the things have been done completely.

give me strength to go through this phase of life, God. I know that every single thing in my life is all Yours, every single chance I get is all from You, all I have to do is to 'read' and to 'do' the thing I called the right

being nineteen is not about how older I have been, but how mature I am to face the rest of my life. sweep away all the moody syndrome and just do as I told to do, this isn't easy at all I know but I really need a first step to start, as a friend said

it is more difficult to change the zero to 1 than to change 1 into 2

or a great observation from a physics lesson by another friend

the energy to start moving from a not-moving state is much more greater