unsaid but hopefully well written

bookstore visit is one of my favorite activity which I have planned to do more often than I did in the previous year. visiting bookstore always give me the feeling of calm and it seems like the time stops for a while or at least it has slow down (and accelerating by the time I went out of the store). you know, when books is all around you and the instrumental music or sometimes acoustic version of up-beat collection comes out of nowhere.

bookstore is definitely one of my favorite place, not like the library. I have never found a good library near my house, even at my department and university (maybe the new library will be good but it is too far from my department). I wish I could see more bookstore like one run by Meg Ryan in You've Got Mail. One of the bookstore near my place feels more intimidating than comforting though they were playing Sabrina's collection.

I can't get any better picture but this one's fine (source). go get and watch the movie! look at the lamp at the shelves! she's doing a story telling too, and the bookstore seems to be so warm, protected, and nice

Anyway, my fourth term is started TOMORROW! wish me luck this yeeear :D. also for this 30 hari menulis challenge, my studio will be hectic (not quite hectic it will be so hectic. and no excuse for first week because I promise myself I will do much much better this term) I hope I can post everyday. if I don't, believe me I'll make the draft EVERYDAY on my notebook (because I'm so excited in this!) and maybe post two in a day or more.

This is the fourth day, so I'm going to talk about my high school friends. I know that I write a lot about them, but I just can't get enough... they're one of the most marvelous things I've ever had. Mungkin banyak orang yang bakal bilang hal yang sama, masa SMA bukan masa yang mudah untuk dilupakan bagi kebanyakan orang. Banyak banget lah kenangannya, bahkan Bowling For Soup aja punya lagu judulnya High School Never Ends ya, dan Vitamin C punya lagu Graduation yang, oh-so-heart-rending. belom lagi glee cast version punya To Sir With Love. maksud gue di sini adalah, apapun topiknya, si high school ini adalah satu poin di mana kita bisa jadi sangat ancur-ancuran atau justru siap menghadapi kehidupan kuliah yang sama sekali nggak mudah.

Banyak orang, especially those who doesn't know me so well (start singing SM*SH everybody!) yang mungkin nggak mengerti kenapa gue bisa memiliki perasaan sedalam itu sama teman-teman SMA gue, banyak banget yang pasti bertanya-tanya kenapakah gue begitu excited setiap liburan tiba dan selalu nyempetin diri untuk ke Bandung (tempat dulu gue SMA), kalo dipikir-pikir temen SMA gue nggak sebanyak temen SMA temen-temen gue yang lain, yang kayanya temenannya lintas sekolah. Apa gue nggak bosen atau apa mereka nggak punya agenda lain?

Dan jawabannya adalah karena merekalah semangat gue untuk moving on. Di saat gue merasa sangat-sangat lelah, gue tahu gue punya serombongan orang yang bersedia jadi shoulders to lean and cry on, serombongan orang yang punya mimpi dan cita-cita yang sama, yang punya pikiran yang sangat dewasa yang menginspirasi gue yang terkadang labil dan childish (oke, most of the time, I admit). Orang-orang mungkin nggak akan percaya saat gue bilang bahwa dengan ngeliat status mereka aja, dengan saling becandaan di komen aja, gue bisa memompa kembali semangat gue yang kurang angin. Tapi ya, itulah kenyataannya. Bahwa sesuatu yang dasarnya adalah sebuah pondasi terkuat di jagat raya memang bisa berpengaruh sehebat itu. Suatu bangunan yang lengkap, memiliki dasar yang kuat dan dapat menarik perhatian orang-orang di sekitarnya, itulah analogi yang akan gue berikan untuk teman-teman SMA gue, dimana gue berharap bahwa gue adalah salah satu dari pembentuk bangunan tersebut.

Karena saat yang satu jatuh, bangunannya tidak akan kuat lagi, dan karena itulah kami melekat erat...

teman-teman tidak dinilai dari seberapa menyenangkan mereka dulu, tapi seberapa berhasil kenangan tentang mereka berubah menjadi semangat yang bikin kita ter-encourage to do better

from Orange Days : episode 7

with text messaging conversations,  unlike real conversation, the time you spend waiting for a reply is irritating and a little painful... making you thing, "Oh, he's not going to reply anymore," but then you get a long message. At a moment like that, the words aren't that meaningful can seem so endearing. - Hagio Sae

ini sebenernya repost dari tumblr gue. I already watch the whole series and decided that this one definitely moved me. I mean, when I watch this scene at the first time I feel like "oh men, I feel exactly the same way,"

from you're beutiful

dan yang ini juga repost dari tumblr, dan entah apa gue pernah memuat gambar ini juga sebelumnya hmmm, yang jelas ini juga salah satu scene favorit gue soalnya super sedih. well, mostly, I'm a pathetically romantic kinda girl so I guess this one just suit me. pada akhirnya cowok kacamata itu nggak jadi juga sama si yang rambut panjang, dan sebenernya itu bukan kisah yang happy ending since I dislike the other guy (the one who called the girl at the picture). tapi ya begitulah, mungkin kalo gue yang jadi sutradaranya ceritanya akan jauh jauh berbeda <-- mulai ngaco

yasudahlah, mudah-mudahan more things to write tomorrow, I'm starting feel like this challenge is quite... hard actually. rrrrrrr

steal it here

make your life a masterpiece...

I've got LOADS of dreams to achieve... just like other people. the problem is, when I keep it only as dreams, I will never make it comes true.

on of my dream is to become an architect.

my lecturer said that at the end of the year when we were going to graduate, maybe we won't want to be an architect anymore. It is indeed tiring, need a real hard work, and also discipline (which is pretty hard because most of the architecture students are obviously the best procrastinator... feel free to disagree anyone :D).

the studio is hard already, to achieve the dream is indeed much harder.

but i believe that if i keep on going forward, I may achieve my dream, I may make my life... a masterpiece :D

Kebetulan sekali seminggu terakhir liburan ini malah ada semacam Sidang MPS waktu gue SMA. namanya bukan itu sih, tapi ya semacam itulah. gue ikutan, entah kenapa penasaran aja mau tau. lagian temen-temen sejurusan juga ada yang ikutan kok, dan mereka sangat super duper dobel seru :D I may skip half of the meeting, but we will never skip the photo session :)

can you see me? ha ha ha

you may ask, kok ceweknya banyak bangeeets? padahal gue kuliah di fakultas teknik loh. teknik ini judulnya.
ya, di jurusan gue emang mayoritasnya cewek. dan yang ikutan di acara ini, karena emang nggak wajib, juga sedikit, nggak sampe setengah departemen kok, sama kayak departemen lainnya. cuma perwakilan aja. makanya keliatannya dikit banget cowoknya.

hmm, sebenernya hari ini juga gue ngeskip satu sesi, malah kemaren gak dateng sama sekali. soalnya adik gue yang paling kecil lagi sakit so I was being the baby sitter since no one home until midday and it is actually my holiday :). Pada awalnya gue malah nggak mau dateng sama sekali loh, kepikiran aja gimana ngemalesinnya rapat dengan banyak kepala, ngerumusin sesuatu untuk menciptakan perubahan yang maksudnya sih supaya jadi lebih baik. Gue bukan orang yang mau repot repot seperti itu, lebih tepat lagi, gue nggak mau repot untuk hal yang menurut gue nggak ada kaitannya sama sekali.

Tapi toh akhirnya gue ikutan juga dan bersenang-senang di sana. poin terakhir ini menurut gue adalah salah satu surprise point, one thing I never thought I will have. Dan setelah dipikir-pikir lagi, ini ada banget loh manfaatnya buat gue, seperti dulu waktu sidang-sidang MPS gue di SMA.

Gue mungkin bisa dapet lebih banyak teman, gue mungkin bisa dapet lebih banyak ilmu tentang organisasi di fakultas, akhirnya gue punya bekal, sehingga saat gue berbicara nantinya gue punya dasar yang benar, nggak cuma komentar dengan subjektif aja.

cari pengalaman sebanyak-banyaknya selama masih bisa, you will need that sometimes in the future - sudden thought

oh yaaaa dan gue ganti layout blog lagi, i'm indecisive I know. OKE. LABIL. biasalah anak muda XD

jadi tadi abis blogwalking ke blog blog seru punya fasil studio dan senior yang sebenernya gue nggak kenal terus ternyata mereka lagi ini loh :


dan kayanya seru aja gitu loh hehehehe

blog, buat gue adalah salah satu (ingat itu hanya salah satu) media untuk mengeluarkan unek-unek maupun menyalurkan 'unspoken words' yang berenang-renang di otak. yes, I often left things unsaid, buried it inside my head. it's not healthy, I know, that's why I have the blog, the tumblr, and the diary (the last one is totally private).
ngeliat mereka yang ngejalanin tantangan ini kok kayanya enak yaaa <-- entah kenapa keliatannya enak aja men. jadi gue mau ikutan aaaaah. and I also ask you, yes yooooou. the very you, to join this.

buat mereka terutama :

1. Fulki Fadhila (http://seekthestar.blogspot.com/) the future doctor whose writings I never get bored to read. I know you had this so-called-hectic schedule, but I know that you love to write, and you should know that I love to read yours :)
2. Tania Miranti (http://russianbytomorrow.blogspot.com/) I love yours too, indeed, hey future interior designer!
3. Fadilah Arief (http://bloomingisbooming.blogspot.com/) I hope this can help you spend your time better. You told me you were having so much spare times back then ha ha ha.
4. Finka Nur Ikhwani (http://nurikhwani.blogspot.com/) hey my so-called junior ha ha ha! (PLEASED TO USE THE TERM!!!!) okaaay so this might be your last year on high school but come on, can you just join me, please?
5. Shufi Syahida (http://mozaicofperfectmoment.blogspot.com/) you can do this on your tumblr if you like, you should know that your words are truly inspiring :)

and hey, she is doing the 30 hari menulis too. I'm quite fond of her writings and she already write the third now :) good luck for us all!

finally a real holiday. the last five days was indeed a heaven-on-earth. the light conversation with deep meaning, those people with real-mind inside. I miss them all, those who share the same feeling, who exactly understand what it is the meaning of the life.

Bahkan bagian ngebully-bully nya pun gue kangen. meeen kenapa bisa gue kelupaan sama semua yang gue tinggalin di belakang? silau sama apa yang ada di depan mata...

melihat mereka membuat gue inget lagi. terimakasih yaaa... my mood booster, my picture of perfect, mudah-mudahan bekal semangatnya cukup, until we meet again :D