For once in a while, for when the sky was not as blue. For when the oranges taste just a bit too sour and for when the day was scorching hot.
It's okay not to be okay when you feel like you had disappointed someone. When you think that you choose happy for you and wary for them. You just can't pleased everyone. You win some, you lose some.
It's okay not to be okay. To close your eyes and ears just for a bit longer. To mute the others and to go on with your life. You don't need to hear everything sometimes. You don't need to try to see every good in every thing. Life is a lesson, you don't get perfect score every time anyway.
It's okay not to be okay and write a thing or two on your diary. It's okay to vent out for a minute or two to your best person, they will understand. Your problem is not insignificant and it's okay not to be strong every time. It's okay to cry for reason you can't articulate. It's okay to hug the person closest to you just to feel a bit warmer inside. It's okay, they will understand that it's okay for you not to be okay for once in a while.
And it's okay that you are such a sensitive human being who overthinks anything. It wasn't a total weakness and at least you know that you are. And those feelings that overwhelm you, they will fade out. Eventually (even though I read somewhere that it was such a lazy word, there's just some things we don't have the power of). It's okay to watch two or three episodes of your favorite tv shows just to make it aside for a while. It's okay to feel gloom again after that. You should now, tou gloom less with every distraction. It's okay even if what distracts you seems petty or insignificant. Everyone had their own way to cope, and your way is okay.
It's okay to admit that you are lost, angry, sad or confused. It's okay to lose the battle as long as you try to get back again. It's okay that you are not as strong as you think you might be. It's okay to loosen up. It's okay to be weak just for this rare times. Your life wasn't flat, it has ups and downs. So it's all okay, it's all right even though it wasn't alright.
Dear self, it's okay not to be okay.
