unsaid but hopefully well written

I HEART THE FRAY =D

oke oke, gue telat ya? masalanya pagi ini gue baru download lagunya yang jadi soundtrack nya Transformers : Revenge of the Fallen. filmnya juga gue belom nonton, abisan kan gue belom nonton yang pertama jadi gue pikir kalo gue nonton yang kedua nggak akan nyambung... lagian kan gue pelit, hehehe..

ya ampuuun.. gue jadi sukaaa banget sama THE FRAY. they ROCK! hahaha

nothing had happened recently. nothing special.

gue nggak ikutan kegiatan apapun di kampus selama semingguan ini, mmm... oke gue bolos hari Senin, tapi gue nggak enak badan hari ini =D

hey that's different. feeling unwell is something inevitable!

I've been talking through facebook's wall to wall with one of my friend about things. so she's faraway in Bandung and that's the only way we could talk.. via facebook, kalo pake hape kan bayar, iya nggak sihh.

well, we've been talking about random things. August Rush. Jonathan Rhys-Meyers. Cello. Piano. (a bit about) Nodame Cantabile. Mukai Osamu. Atashinchi no Danshi. Dave Koz. You Are Me, I am You (by Dave Koz). Saxophone. Freddie Highmore. Frankie Muniz. (I'm sure we were also mentioning about) Keri Russell. College Life. Etc.

All of that are a bit about us.

dan gue akhirnya ngerasain lagi bahagianya punya temen yang bisa diajak ngobrol soal hal-hal yang kami sukai bersama. I almost forget that feeling, I usually pretending.

i'm feeling low

kemaren setelah OBM rasanya gue puas banget. seems like i was being myself for a week. but now i feel like waking up from a sleep and face the reality.. untuk gue realitanya adalah berkenalan dengan orang lagi.

gue benci berkenalan. benci berada dalam lingkungan baru dimana gue adalah si orang asing. outsider. gue nggak nyaman dengan lingkungan yang nggak bisa gue masukin, entah itu karena gue emang nggak cocok atau karena gue nggak mau nyoba untuk masuk.

yes this is selfish and also unevitable

i hate looking for reasons to erase my guilty feeling but i just can't help to do it..

ngga tau deh nasibnya bakalan kayak apa. yang jelas gue punya harapan sebelumnya, dan harapan gue jelas-jelas bukannya jadi penyendiri atau geek di antara orang-orang yang akan jadi partner belajar gue nantinya.

missing you all guys, i know you're here in my heart eventhough you are far away.. i just wish i could change my mind..