Wednesday, December 6, 2017

2017 : The Year of Fangirling

Can't believe it's December already!
Since 2017 is ending and it seems like I've been neglecting this blog for too long, I decided to write again. One post for at least 2 weeks! Let's hope I can liven up this blog again :)

To end 2017, I will write several things that happened to me in 2017. To sum it up, the year has been... unpredictable. There's a lot of changes happened in myself that I still need to adjust myself to this so-called new life :). Soo... let's begin with the first one.


Contrary to popular belief, if I think again, It's true that I'm a K-enthusiast, but I've never a huge fan.

My k-journey started around 2009, when my friend introduced me to Super Junior. She was a huge fan and even started earlier than I am. So at that moment, I have almost all Super Junior songs in my playlist, just because she is my only source. The songs are good though, but it actually leads to what I enjoy the most : Korean Variety Shows.

I didn't watch everything, only Running Man, which is very huge at that time, Appa Eodiga and We Got Married (because I was also watching dramas, one of them is She's Beautiful in which Yonghwa being the second lead. Apparently, she was also in WGM, so I watched that later).

One thing about K-varieties is that it is often leads to another so you don't really stop watching (ha!). For instance, I wasn't planning on continue watching WGM, but then I watched School 2013, so when School 2015 is out I also watched them. Then, one of the cast got casted in WGM, so I follow the episodes.

Then I was following a couple, and then Jung Joon Young came up as the cast. After a while, he appeared again in the new season of 2 Days 1 Night, so I watched 2D1N and ended up liking the whole show.

Or when there's just an urge to watch something, Roommate came up. It's pretty much the start of me liking EXO for a while (from Overdose to Call Me Baby (I have kinda lessen my attachment on Love Me Right)). And when the 2nd season is out, I came to like Jackson, so I search on Got7.

me being a fangirl in 2016 : taking a picture of Chanyeol's subway ad on my trip
And so everything leads to another that I can pretty much say that I know a tiny bits about several things, but never the whole thing. And it's actually a pretty handy knowledge that can be use as an ice breaker. I have several instances in which I was involved in conversation because apparently I and the other person have watched the same thing. That and Japanese Dramas.

At least until 2017.

I remember in the beginning of January, I was chatting with one of my friend and we were talking about k-pop. She said that she was really into Day6 lately. She told me that this group is currently on a project called EveryDay6 in which they release 2 songs every month. And they're a band. Oh wow, I told her, because we both like CN Blue when they first came out and I kinda curious on how this band would sounds like.
pic from here : x
Well they got me at the first line of ah wae :)

Upon liking Day6, I tried a lot of things, and that's actually a lot for me and kinda tiring. Since I knew them on their second year, I have a year and a half to backtrack; radio appearances, fancams (most important!!) V broadcasts, and once I started, I couldn't just stop. In early 2017, when I have a lot more free times than I am now, I was on my phone the whole time so I can catch up on them on time. Streaming radios, twitter updates and streaming V broadcasts almost every single week (since they're on promotion the whole year, so there are 1 scheduled broadcast every week). No sub? No worries, I found out that people do some live translation on twitter.

It was exciting, really. I remember getting excited for a teaser week that leads to a release. In early 2017, I was waiting for 12 KST so that I can catch the teaser and tweet about it and reading exciting captions about that (usually) 1 single (or 2 at most) photo. Trust me you can actually spazzing for 1 photo in 1 hour minimum. You still can go on, though.

Getting your name or comments read by the artist is also heart-warming ♡. I have said already that I tried a lot of things, fangirling related, this year. So once, on their broadcast, I spam a very silly comment about other member and apparently my bias read it. I believe it was my comment since I wrote that like more than 20 times and no one was commenting on the same thing before my bias read mine. But with the comment went so fast, I can't really check or prove it though, so as long as I think it is XD.

There's also a radio show in which my bias is hosting every week (in english, so I can listen to it real time (though if it was viewable, the urge to watch it is so big (and whyyy south korea? Why there's a thing called viewable radio?))). Every week, they will let the listener guess the one who topped their chart and the listeners are supposed to write the answer on the radio message board. To tell the truth, sometimes I enter my first name, and my second name, just to see whether my bias will say my name or not. And he did! (Eventhough there are also time in which I forget which name I enter earlier). And there's this one time, I even win the selfie and he said my name is a sick name 😎.

Around May, I think the excitement has faded a little. But when they confirmed a fanmeeting in my country in August, I immediately find a friend to go to the concert and bought the ticket. Turns out, it was super lit. I write this part the day after the concert and watching my friend's fancams (me not functioning properly just get crazy with the crowds) and remembering that finally I've been part of the free hage crowd (fancam not mine but still, this is what freehage crowd is). SO 🔥(lit).

After the fanmeeting in August, I can pretty much say that I'm... done (?) with my fangirling life. I still follow them on social media, getting news from the twitter, listening to their releases, but then a major thing happened around September and so I decided to actually stop. Until... this week. LOL. No, but seriously, I can't say that I'm getting back to that fangirling phase, but it's still nice to listen to them every once in a while :). And yes, I just heard their new release. Check it out here.

In conclusion, being a fangirl is actually a lot of works. To be honest, even if I do wonder sometimes about just how much time I spend catching up with their schedule, releases, and sometimes being salty over a lot of things (side effect on being an international fangirl), I don't really regretting that phase of my life but I'm not getting into that anymore. Being a fangirl has been a fun ride :)

ps. just in case there's actually people who read and would want to actually check Day6, here are some links (#promoteam) (tip : Day6 are soooo much better live) : 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9


(I actually write this back in August and completing it on December. Well, you can tell which part I did write back in August, right?).

Thursday, November 9, 2017

I Remember

I've been on Mocca Mood this last couple days and of course I stumble upon this wonderful original soundtrack of Catatan Akhir Sekolah. Anyone watch the movie? I remember it was on the theater when I was still on my Junior High School. I had a big crush on Marcel Chandrawinata because of that movie and my favorite moments include his moments with Ranti (so my shipping habit had been started since that long time ago XD)

(The lettering was mine, framed just because there's an empty frame in my office wall and it was empty)

and it's been a looooong time since my last post, and to give a veeeeery quick update, I'm now married :).

Tuesday, August 1, 2017

People's Mistakes and My Own Wrongdoings

Don't make people mistake as your excuse for your wrongdoing.
Pertama kali saya denger kalimat ini... kayaknya waktu SMA. Lupa sih waktu itu konteksnya apa, tapi baru-baru ini saya mengalami, hmm lebih tepatnya mendengar curhatan temen saya yang bikin saya jadi keingetan lagi soal kalimat itu.

Seringkali sih, yang kejadian sama saya tuh yang kayak gini : kalo lagi kerja, terus main candy crush dulu sampe jam 10, yang kepikiran adalah "ah, si A juga main dulu. Nggak apa-apalah aku main juga, nanti juga dia main terus, aku masih ngerjain," (kemudian mendadak jago jadi gak abis-abis lives-nya). Atau, ya udah sih aku tidur-tiduran dulu weekend ini, kemaren juga si abang tidur sampe siang nggak ada yang ngomelin,"

Masalahnya tuh sebenernya bukan di main candy crush-nya, atau di tidur-tiduran pas weekend-nya, tapi karena pembenaran yang saya lakukan itu. Kayak, dalam hati kecil saya, saya tau, akan jauh lebih baik kalau saya main candy crush-nya pas istirahat kerja, atau karena kerjaan saya santai, ya pas saya lagi ngantuk-ngantuknya setelah jam makan siang biar bangun lagi, atau pas kerjaan saya udah beres. Tapi, saya ngerasa I'm not doing greater sins than what my other friend did. Ngerasa aman lah intinya.

Padahal, we are all accountable for what we are doing, kan? Bukan berarti kalo ada orang ngelakuin hal yang salah, terus saya jadi sedikit berkurang nilai kesalahannya karena yang saya lakuin nggak sampe ke level orang yang bersalah itu.

Yang bikin saya benar-benar sadar sama hal ini adalah pas saya denger orang ngomong, "lah, kalo dia aja iya, kenapa aku nggak boleh?" Karena menurut orang ini, si orang pertama yang dia omongin itu mestinya kualitasnya udah top banget.

Saya jadi mikir sendiri, saya nggak mau, kan, dijadiin alesan buat orang lain melakukan kesalahan? Ya terus kenapa saya pun ngambil standar baik/buruk dan benar/salah itu dari orang lain, bukannya dari nilai yang saya percayai?

Obrolan-obrolan dan kejadian-kejadian di sekeliling saya ini jadi bikin saya sadar, batas-batas toleransi yang dilonggarkan, itu mungkin awalnya dari sini. Dari membenarkan apa yang kita anggap salah pada awalnya, hanya karena kita yakin banget orang lain ngelakuin kesalahan yang lebih berat dari kita. Padahal mah, ya siapa yang tau nilai perbuatan seseorang, kan? Menulis tentang ini pun bukan berarti saya udah sepenuhnya nggak pernah mikir kayak gini sih, hehe. Namanya juga proses, sedikit-sedikit, insya Allah lama-lama jadi orang yang lebih baik ya? Aamiin.

Ps. Tapi seriusan, main candy crush soda saga itu seru pisan gapaham lagi :")

Friday, July 14, 2017

Mampir ke Yogyakarta

I'm scratching two of my traveling list in the first half of the year! Yay. Hope I can't scratch another off the list by the end of the year (though it's unlikely... a girl can always dream, right ;))

Perjalanan saya ke Yogyakarta weekend kemarin, ceritanya dalam rangka menghadiri pernikahan teman saya yang diselenggarakan di sana. Tadinya memang saya mau sekalian main ke rumah teman saya yang di Semarang, tapi karena satu dan lain hal, akhirnya saya langsung ke Yogya.

When the city is probably a very common destination for holiday, my last time visiting Yogyakarta was on my second year of Junior High School, for a school trip. I didn't even remember the city from back then. So I was excited about the trip even though I know that I won't be exploring so much since I came for my friend's occasion (and still no driving ability, thankyouverymuch).

I and my friend went by train on Thursday night and arrived in Yogya around 6 in the morning. We were picked up at the station and went to have gudeg for breakfast in Jalan Wijilan.

left : breakfast. right : second breakfast XD

After that, we went to the hotel, but since we can't check in early, we were sitting in the lobby and after that grab another breakfast in the cafe next to the hotel. Both of the hotel and the cafe were very nicely decorated. I already put a link for both if you're interested :)

decoration at the hotel
a wall in the cafe
Our next schedule was to pick up our friends from the airport. And after that, before check in, went for lunch near our hotel.

It's already 3 in the afternoon when we went back to the hotel. And as we have an occasion to attend that night, we decided to take a short break before getting ready to go again. I spend half of my late afternoon walking around Jalan Prawirotaman with two of my friend instead of sleeping though. Apparently, the street was kind of developed lately and there were so many guest house, hotels, and small and cute shops along the way. If you're interested to visit this particular neighborhood, read more here.
here's where we went for lunch
The next day, we started early to attend the wedding ceremonies. I managed to go around UGM university with my friend just for a while before went back to the party. Our schedule after that was to go back to the hotel, and getting ready to catch my train at 17.45 in Stasiun Tugu.

The ceremony was held in Masjid UGM.
Around 2 in the afternoon, after the whole celebration is done and I'm ready with my bags, we went for a drive. Supposedly to Sangkring Art Space, but before we arrived, our friends told us that the place is closed. We change direction to Stasiun Tugu instead because we need to catch the train. And in that particular day, Yogyakarta was on heavy traffic. And there goes my Malioboro walking trip :(.

left : tiada lengkap tanpa es krim McD yang belinya drivethru | right : street in yogyakarta 
I managed to visit Malioboro, though. After arriving at the Stasiun Tugu around 4, I and my friends walk to Malioboro, eat the first bakso we saw on the street (we're hunggggry), and walk along the way until it's time for us to board the train. Malioboro was super nice, I would love to be back again and explore the street thoroughly.

street art
The glory of public space :)
And so, there was my episode of 'Mampir ke Yogyakarta'. See you next time in a better schedule, dear city :)

Tuesday, May 9, 2017

For Now, Maybe It's Not for Me

What do you want to be?

The answer changes over time. When I was a kid, I remember I wanted to be an architect. At some point on high school, I have wanted to be a script writer, and there's also a time when I want to be a person who do voice over for advertisement.

I went to architecture school after finishing high school. Still likes to write and still love the sound of people who does voice over. But maybe that's not for me.

As I graduate from the school, and being a junior architect for a year, I often wonder, if this is what I want. Drawing on computer, overworked, arrived home in the morning just to be at the office again more or less at 9, whining every time I met my friend... I guess I am not. So I quit.

I guess I wasn't cut out for being in the office. Maybe that's not for me.

I love doing DIY, so I started trying things like doodling and book binding, but 8 months later, I was going nowhere near any stationery business I thought I want to have. Also not inch closer to any graduate school application I thought I had wanted. I told everyone, I don't know what I want to study, I don't want to messed up (or maybe just afraid).

Maybe continuing the school is not for me.

So I'm back being in the office again even though I thought it wasn't for me just the year before. This time as a junior landscape architect. Thankfully the working situation is much better than the first one though I can't say that it was the best. Maybe specializing in landscape is for me, maybe I just got to know about it right now.

After 1.5 years, I quit again, this time, I got offered another architect job in which I can work from home. I thought I want that; at that time, I realize that no matter how hard it was doing my work, how I was actually overworked and no matter how much I whine, there's part of me that likes doing it.

Maybe this is for me.

And not working full time was the ultimate on my wishlist. Imagine working from home, setting up a home office, actually doing what I like, making stationery products in between, traveling without having to worry about filling the leave form. I was excited of the opportunity.

Maybe this is for me.

But after spending couple of weeks doing nothing, working with speed of snail (like, I finish presentation slides for a week while I can do the whole thing in a day when I was still in the office), and the temptation of watching anything as fast as the episode is out, makes me realize that maybe this is not for me. I'm doing trips to the office again just 1.5 months after.

I can be the girl who prefer to be home all weekend, reading in my room to going out and watch movies, settle with whatever food in the house because I'm too lazy to go out and looking for more choice of food outside, but apparently, working from home is not for me.

On a conversation with a friend of mine, we agree that we actually need to wear good clothes and being outside of the house to work. That doesn't mean I don't prefer being at home, or I wanted to work in an office forever, it just means that maybe the thing is not for me.

In the future, there'll be more things that maybe not for me now, but later. Or vice versa. I'm pretty sure of that. Bottom line is, these last couple years, I've been trying all the things I thought both for me and not for me. I went here and there, doing this and that, coming out from the comfort zone and find the other. I guess there's still so much I can try, there's still so much things out there waiting for me to embrace and maybe to left once I know it is apparently not for me.

I guess, impossible is only impossible when it's proven that it is impossible :)