unsaid but hopefully well written

bookstore visit is one of my favorite activity which I have planned to do more often than I did in the previous year. visiting bookstore always give me the feeling of calm and it seems like the time stops for a while or at least it has slow down (and accelerating by the time I went out of the store). you know, when books is all around you and the instrumental music or sometimes acoustic version of up-beat collection comes out of nowhere.

bookstore is definitely one of my favorite place, not like the library. I have never found a good library near my house, even at my department and university (maybe the new library will be good but it is too far from my department). I wish I could see more bookstore like one run by Meg Ryan in You've Got Mail. One of the bookstore near my place feels more intimidating than comforting though they were playing Sabrina's collection.

I can't get any better picture but this one's fine (source). go get and watch the movie! look at the lamp at the shelves! she's doing a story telling too, and the bookstore seems to be so warm, protected, and nice

Anyway, my fourth term is started TOMORROW! wish me luck this yeeear :D. also for this 30 hari menulis challenge, my studio will be hectic (not quite hectic it will be so hectic. and no excuse for first week because I promise myself I will do much much better this term) I hope I can post everyday. if I don't, believe me I'll make the draft EVERYDAY on my notebook (because I'm so excited in this!) and maybe post two in a day or more.

This is the fourth day, so I'm going to talk about my high school friends. I know that I write a lot about them, but I just can't get enough... they're one of the most marvelous things I've ever had. Mungkin banyak orang yang bakal bilang hal yang sama, masa SMA bukan masa yang mudah untuk dilupakan bagi kebanyakan orang. Banyak banget lah kenangannya, bahkan Bowling For Soup aja punya lagu judulnya High School Never Ends ya, dan Vitamin C punya lagu Graduation yang, oh-so-heart-rending. belom lagi glee cast version punya To Sir With Love. maksud gue di sini adalah, apapun topiknya, si high school ini adalah satu poin di mana kita bisa jadi sangat ancur-ancuran atau justru siap menghadapi kehidupan kuliah yang sama sekali nggak mudah.

Banyak orang, especially those who doesn't know me so well (start singing SM*SH everybody!) yang mungkin nggak mengerti kenapa gue bisa memiliki perasaan sedalam itu sama teman-teman SMA gue, banyak banget yang pasti bertanya-tanya kenapakah gue begitu excited setiap liburan tiba dan selalu nyempetin diri untuk ke Bandung (tempat dulu gue SMA), kalo dipikir-pikir temen SMA gue nggak sebanyak temen SMA temen-temen gue yang lain, yang kayanya temenannya lintas sekolah. Apa gue nggak bosen atau apa mereka nggak punya agenda lain?

Dan jawabannya adalah karena merekalah semangat gue untuk moving on. Di saat gue merasa sangat-sangat lelah, gue tahu gue punya serombongan orang yang bersedia jadi shoulders to lean and cry on, serombongan orang yang punya mimpi dan cita-cita yang sama, yang punya pikiran yang sangat dewasa yang menginspirasi gue yang terkadang labil dan childish (oke, most of the time, I admit). Orang-orang mungkin nggak akan percaya saat gue bilang bahwa dengan ngeliat status mereka aja, dengan saling becandaan di komen aja, gue bisa memompa kembali semangat gue yang kurang angin. Tapi ya, itulah kenyataannya. Bahwa sesuatu yang dasarnya adalah sebuah pondasi terkuat di jagat raya memang bisa berpengaruh sehebat itu. Suatu bangunan yang lengkap, memiliki dasar yang kuat dan dapat menarik perhatian orang-orang di sekitarnya, itulah analogi yang akan gue berikan untuk teman-teman SMA gue, dimana gue berharap bahwa gue adalah salah satu dari pembentuk bangunan tersebut.

Karena saat yang satu jatuh, bangunannya tidak akan kuat lagi, dan karena itulah kami melekat erat...

teman-teman tidak dinilai dari seberapa menyenangkan mereka dulu, tapi seberapa berhasil kenangan tentang mereka berubah menjadi semangat yang bikin kita ter-encourage to do better

from Orange Days : episode 7

with text messaging conversations,  unlike real conversation, the time you spend waiting for a reply is irritating and a little painful... making you thing, "Oh, he's not going to reply anymore," but then you get a long message. At a moment like that, the words aren't that meaningful can seem so endearing. - Hagio Sae

ini sebenernya repost dari tumblr gue. I already watch the whole series and decided that this one definitely moved me. I mean, when I watch this scene at the first time I feel like "oh men, I feel exactly the same way,"

from you're beutiful

dan yang ini juga repost dari tumblr, dan entah apa gue pernah memuat gambar ini juga sebelumnya hmmm, yang jelas ini juga salah satu scene favorit gue soalnya super sedih. well, mostly, I'm a pathetically romantic kinda girl so I guess this one just suit me. pada akhirnya cowok kacamata itu nggak jadi juga sama si yang rambut panjang, dan sebenernya itu bukan kisah yang happy ending since I dislike the other guy (the one who called the girl at the picture). tapi ya begitulah, mungkin kalo gue yang jadi sutradaranya ceritanya akan jauh jauh berbeda <-- mulai ngaco

yasudahlah, mudah-mudahan more things to write tomorrow, I'm starting feel like this challenge is quite... hard actually. rrrrrrr

steal it here

make your life a masterpiece...

I've got LOADS of dreams to achieve... just like other people. the problem is, when I keep it only as dreams, I will never make it comes true.

on of my dream is to become an architect.

my lecturer said that at the end of the year when we were going to graduate, maybe we won't want to be an architect anymore. It is indeed tiring, need a real hard work, and also discipline (which is pretty hard because most of the architecture students are obviously the best procrastinator... feel free to disagree anyone :D).

the studio is hard already, to achieve the dream is indeed much harder.

but i believe that if i keep on going forward, I may achieve my dream, I may make my life... a masterpiece :D

Kebetulan sekali seminggu terakhir liburan ini malah ada semacam Sidang MPS waktu gue SMA. namanya bukan itu sih, tapi ya semacam itulah. gue ikutan, entah kenapa penasaran aja mau tau. lagian temen-temen sejurusan juga ada yang ikutan kok, dan mereka sangat super duper dobel seru :D I may skip half of the meeting, but we will never skip the photo session :)

can you see me? ha ha ha

you may ask, kok ceweknya banyak bangeeets? padahal gue kuliah di fakultas teknik loh. teknik ini judulnya.
ya, di jurusan gue emang mayoritasnya cewek. dan yang ikutan di acara ini, karena emang nggak wajib, juga sedikit, nggak sampe setengah departemen kok, sama kayak departemen lainnya. cuma perwakilan aja. makanya keliatannya dikit banget cowoknya.

hmm, sebenernya hari ini juga gue ngeskip satu sesi, malah kemaren gak dateng sama sekali. soalnya adik gue yang paling kecil lagi sakit so I was being the baby sitter since no one home until midday and it is actually my holiday :). Pada awalnya gue malah nggak mau dateng sama sekali loh, kepikiran aja gimana ngemalesinnya rapat dengan banyak kepala, ngerumusin sesuatu untuk menciptakan perubahan yang maksudnya sih supaya jadi lebih baik. Gue bukan orang yang mau repot repot seperti itu, lebih tepat lagi, gue nggak mau repot untuk hal yang menurut gue nggak ada kaitannya sama sekali.

Tapi toh akhirnya gue ikutan juga dan bersenang-senang di sana. poin terakhir ini menurut gue adalah salah satu surprise point, one thing I never thought I will have. Dan setelah dipikir-pikir lagi, ini ada banget loh manfaatnya buat gue, seperti dulu waktu sidang-sidang MPS gue di SMA.

Gue mungkin bisa dapet lebih banyak teman, gue mungkin bisa dapet lebih banyak ilmu tentang organisasi di fakultas, akhirnya gue punya bekal, sehingga saat gue berbicara nantinya gue punya dasar yang benar, nggak cuma komentar dengan subjektif aja.

cari pengalaman sebanyak-banyaknya selama masih bisa, you will need that sometimes in the future - sudden thought

oh yaaaa dan gue ganti layout blog lagi, i'm indecisive I know. OKE. LABIL. biasalah anak muda XD

jadi tadi abis blogwalking ke blog blog seru punya fasil studio dan senior yang sebenernya gue nggak kenal terus ternyata mereka lagi ini loh :


dan kayanya seru aja gitu loh hehehehe

blog, buat gue adalah salah satu (ingat itu hanya salah satu) media untuk mengeluarkan unek-unek maupun menyalurkan 'unspoken words' yang berenang-renang di otak. yes, I often left things unsaid, buried it inside my head. it's not healthy, I know, that's why I have the blog, the tumblr, and the diary (the last one is totally private).
ngeliat mereka yang ngejalanin tantangan ini kok kayanya enak yaaa <-- entah kenapa keliatannya enak aja men. jadi gue mau ikutan aaaaah. and I also ask you, yes yooooou. the very you, to join this.

buat mereka terutama :

1. Fulki Fadhila (http://seekthestar.blogspot.com/) the future doctor whose writings I never get bored to read. I know you had this so-called-hectic schedule, but I know that you love to write, and you should know that I love to read yours :)
2. Tania Miranti (http://russianbytomorrow.blogspot.com/) I love yours too, indeed, hey future interior designer!
3. Fadilah Arief (http://bloomingisbooming.blogspot.com/) I hope this can help you spend your time better. You told me you were having so much spare times back then ha ha ha.
4. Finka Nur Ikhwani (http://nurikhwani.blogspot.com/) hey my so-called junior ha ha ha! (PLEASED TO USE THE TERM!!!!) okaaay so this might be your last year on high school but come on, can you just join me, please?
5. Shufi Syahida (http://mozaicofperfectmoment.blogspot.com/) you can do this on your tumblr if you like, you should know that your words are truly inspiring :)

and hey, she is doing the 30 hari menulis too. I'm quite fond of her writings and she already write the third now :) good luck for us all!

finally a real holiday. the last five days was indeed a heaven-on-earth. the light conversation with deep meaning, those people with real-mind inside. I miss them all, those who share the same feeling, who exactly understand what it is the meaning of the life.

Bahkan bagian ngebully-bully nya pun gue kangen. meeen kenapa bisa gue kelupaan sama semua yang gue tinggalin di belakang? silau sama apa yang ada di depan mata...

melihat mereka membuat gue inget lagi. terimakasih yaaa... my mood booster, my picture of perfect, mudah-mudahan bekal semangatnya cukup, until we meet again :D

I drink my father's coffee... just now

no, it shouldn't be a big deal. he's sleeping right now, and the coffee gets cold. I don't drink all of them, only a bit of it. He won't mind, but it's just strange. Different to people at my age (especially when I was on high school, and now as an architecture student who stay up late a lot) I don't drink coffee. at any rate. probably, I hate it. I don't like the taste. But I drink it, tonight.

and staying up this late is also a strange thing. I don't staying up when I have an important assignment (that should be the main reason why I don't get good grades this term).

strange things happens for me lately. not to mention that I wasn't so strange before. I was, at least, I think I was kinda... different. but I like it that way

anyway, I finished watching skins. fall in love all over again with Cassie (I love the way she said 'wow' and 'totally') and Maxxie (forget the gay thing). loves the last two episodes (both season 1 and 2). and feel sorry about Jal and Chris. Still don't understand about Anwar but glad that he's back with Maxxie (as best friends of course)

going to watch the Orange's Days as I said in the last post.




okaaaay this is going to be a not-so-important post but I have to write. you know, the feeling that attacks you that you really have to write something, you just have to. I don't know why, sometimes I feel that way. maybe you share the same bizarre feeling?

seeing the picture of Harry-Ron-Hermione again. my favorite graphics about them on tumblr (so far). and also reblog this picture of Shinichi and Ran from Detective Conan. I wish they will somehow end up together, tired of being emotionally involved only by looking at their picture, separating. guess it just me, but still... I got emotionally involved a lot with those fictional characters and this is not good. but well, just let it be that way.

going to have a sleep now. bye then

the last changes has annoy me so here I am changing the blog all over again. not finished yet, hopefully I can find the mood to make it better

anyone read The Lost Hero? It was such a good book, try and read it soon! the sequel will be out on fall this year (October 2011), I found the word charmspeak from the book. I love it :D

anyway, I'm now watching skins, the first two season. the holiday is going to lasts soon so I'm going to finish the series as soon as possible, which is quite easy because the end always makes me curious about the next episode. So far I've been watching the fifth episode, season two. I'm going to watch Orange's Days too, a japanese drama (back to basic everyone)

I'm off to Bandung in two days. spend the rest of the week and go back to do things... wish me luck for the next term :D have a happy holiday everyonr

terlalu banyak pelajaran dari dua harian ini. terimakasih ya Allah, masih diingatkan :) karena yang baik-baik memang hanya datang dari Engkau dan yang tidak baik pasti datang dari perbuatan manusia yang lalai

forget the mood swing and let's change the blog! ahey

at the beginning I was planning to change the banner of the blog but suddenly, a friend of mine chat me on facebook, told me that the score has not published yet but can be seen at the GPA graphic

listening to the song, seeing how rachel and her friends were singing this wholeheartedly to Mr. Schuester just give me a chill. entah kenapa ngingetin sama the whole-package high school-life I had back then

still and always be missing those good times, but the life goes on so we keep on going forward :D

yang sangat gue percayai adalah mereka benar-benar berharga karena kenangan tentang mereka bisa dan sangat bisa membuat gue berbuat lebih dan lebih baik lagi. terimakasih :D

finally back again to the bookstore! kangen banget jalan-jalan ke toko buku. liat-liat buku harian, map gede warna-warni, alat tulis lucu-lucu, buku agenda 2011, novel-novel yang minta dibaca (meeeeen!) dan macem-macem stoples dan tempat-tempat kecil yang bikin gue bilang ke temen gue, "pengen beli nih! tapi sebenernya nggak perlu. tapi pengeeeen" dan akhirnya berhasil melawan keinginan buat beli ini itu yang nggak perlu.
kemaren akhirnya menambah jumlah novel :3 ga tahan jadi beli buku ini :

Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up:
These are the best days of our lives.
The only thing that matters
is just following your heart
and eventually you'll finally get it right.

in this diary - the ataris

sedang sangat sangat sangat sangat kangen sama temen-temen SMA. dan walaupun temen-temen seangkatan gue (terutama di jurusan) keliatannya kayak anak SMA semua (maksudnya anak SMA bayangan gue ya, bukan anak SMA di tv dan di jaman sekarang), I just don't feel the same.

tapi iya sih. emang nggak akan kerasa sama juga...

hmmm, tahun 2011. bulan oktober nanti umur gue bakal jadi 20. meeeen, ga kerasa banget! entah kenapa denger 20 tahun itu kerasanya tua banget -_______-" gatau guenya aja kali ya. tambah umur entah kenapa nggak bikin gue merasa dewasa, mature. in way of thinking and behaving. padahal pengen, pengeeeeen banget bisa jadi seseorang yang seperti itu.

mudah-mudahan sebelum si 20 itu nyampe gue bisa, paling nggak, merubah diri gue sendiri. Being grown up shouldn't be so fun, but life's going forward. I can't be left behind. not when I have good things to do :)