unsaid but hopefully well written

I can't blame architecture for making me reading less books in the last 3 and a half years. Maybe even less than what I've read in a year when I was on high school. But anyway, It's sucks to realize that my speed on reading has become worse. When I usually finish a good book less in a day (for around 300 pages I think) now, I easily drifted off from the pages.

So, I decided to make a comeback on reading

This year, it will be nice if I can :

1. Read up to 40 titles minimum. Less is worse
2. Finish all the books that I started reading. Not that I can't read other books if I get bored, I just have to finish what I've started
3. Buy more books without thinking
4. Reading less romantic-genre

Maybe I will put some review here once in a while. And this is my list for February :

ini post spesial (yang pastinya kebaca sama orang lain tapi nggak sama orangnya tapi kalo kebaca juga alhamdulillah) buat teman saya yang (ehm) menikah kemarin. nggak ada semacam pengumuman resmi sebenernya, bisa dibilang saya taunya dari gosip gosip di sekitar saya (iya sih, nyari gosipnya pake usaha). tapi ya, resmi nggak resmi pada intinya, pertama kali denger kabarnya saya kaget dan excited.

sebenernya merasa bersalah sih soalnya lebih excited karena (kalo diundang ke resepsi) berarti akan ada kesempatan untuk pake baju dan sepatu lucu. dari kemarin saya mikir, mau pake baju dan sepatu apa ya, kalo diundang ke resepsinya (sambil merasa bersalah karena yang dipikirin itu doang :p). tapi iya sih jadi kepikiran juga kalo akhirnya saya sampai pada tahap usia yang mulai mikirin soal that next stage of life (and I'm not going to explain it any further) yang tadinya terasa begitu jauh.

lalu mari kembali ke maksud awal bahwa post ini adalah untuk teman saya yang kemarin menikah itu. hehehehe.. selamat yaaaaa! sama sekali nggak nyangka bakal kamu duluan yang nikah (considering some of speculation made by me and some of my friends). seriusan begitu tau kabar itu, saya langsung nggak konsen ngerjain UAS karena terlalu excited dan bahagia.

you know, saat kita bahagia karena kebahagiaan orang lain itu rasanya jauh lebih bahagia daripada bahagia sendirian.

jadi sekali lagi, selamat untuk kamu ya (becandanya adalah now dobby is free huahahahhaa) and no matter how many emoticon I use won't express my happiness and excitement. so, once again, congratulation!

the most intriguing question for today was sponsored by a colleague of mine.

hari ini saya jaga pameran AFAIR 2013. kebetulan ada orang nanya soal project saya (klik tab pertama di sebelah kanan ya :)) yang ada di pameran itu. setelah saya jawab pertanyaannya, dia nanya begini : 'so what did you learn from the children?'

di luar konteks pertanyaannya yang memang nyambung sama project saya, menurut saya, pertanyaan ini intriguing. pertanyaan ini bikin saya mikir bahwa masih ada loh orang yang menghargai proses di balik sesuatu yang cuma dia liat hasilnya. that a process is one important phase is a true story. bahwa sukses atau gagal itu adalah hasil semata. bisa bikin seneng, bisa bikin kesel, bisa bikin down, dan lain-lainnya. tapi cerita dibaliknya, itu yang menentukan apakah seneng dan keselnya akan sia-sia atau nggak.

that you learn all your life is something undeniable. sadar atau tidak sadar. masalahnya adalah mau atau tidak :)

'kalau kamu di sini...' itu frase paling bikin galau sedunia. it's as if your presence will make things better and unfortunately you can't be there. it's as if you had made a wrong choice not to be there.

or in the other hand, it is a relief that you are not even there. that your presence will ruin things and it's as if you're not even wanted.

then if you're such an over-thinking kind of people then you'll suffer from this phrase

do you remember that I have posted about a community project to rejuvenate a school library? Around the end of last year, some friends of mine had taken the course and they make a very awesome library that can be check here :

http://perpustakaansekolahku.wordpress.com/

and another one here :

http://akudanperpustakaan.blogspot.com/

Both of the library are cool and the behind the scene parts are exciting. I'd like to participate in this kind of project again someday! hope you like it! Maybe some of the furniture would inspire you to make one in your own house. Since this is a (less than 2 months) job, most of them are hand made :)

time flies and things change. yesterday, a kind-of-shocking news reach me. Not in a bad way, more in a good and exciting way. And that news open up my eyes wider. Boom. Things are not the same, not in 7 years, not in a blink of an eye.

yesterday, I watched an episode from How I Met Your Mother. You know, the episode when Robin left Don because he accept a job she had turned down because she was considering her relationship with him. Robin came to Ted's apartment, and she was like crying. And then, Ted said this :

But eventually overtime, we are all becoming our own doppelgangers. you know, completely different people just happen to look like us. five years ago, Robin, that girl, she's pretty great but Doppelganger Robin, she's amazing.

We are all becoming our own doppelganger overtime. It's been almost 7 years for me, and yes, it is going to change forever. The time we spent in high school will never be repeated, no matter how hard we try to redo it. I mean, being 20something and sitting in the exact chair, listening to the exact words from the same teacher  won't ever feel like going back to sixteen. And as the time goes by, the time we spent together might change its value.We may not do silly things like singing along the street singer on the way to curug last year. We won't talking about Kungfu Komang or Happy Tree Friends because finally we have something real to do.

But as Ted says to Robin, our doppelganger in 10 years to come might even more amazing.

And after all, I still listen to GooseHouse's Sky :

No tears no sorrow
Even if tomorrow turned away
And keep us apart
'Cause this is the sky you gave to me
Every rain give birth to grace
Some day our dreams bloom
We'll walk our own way
Then looking back, 'I'm alone' you may say
Hey don't you forget
We always share the sky
Always... I'm by your side

with love to my26

anyone visited afairui.com yet?

the main event will be held in Candra Naya, Gajah Mada on January 27th. It's only 25 days to the big day! I am currently working on a project with my friends, Grace, Tria, and Edwin (all architecture batch 2009) and it will be on the exhibition!

rough sketch by Grace