I made this post because I was moved by this short writing. And because screaming I FEEEEEL YOUUU will lost how deep its meaning for me (imo) I decided to share some things here.
The last one and a half months has been a roller coaster month for me. I've been feeling like crying for like, twice a day in the first couple weeks. I'm basically a crybaby so it was not new, but it strikes me that I'm not strong enough to face the challenge. I have this determination before everything starts to change and then when I'm on it, it was too hard.
But then, you know, it's actually a matter of ourselves. Satu bulan pertama, jujur saja, saya dicekoki berbagai macam hal. Not all good things. Mostly things that weaken the determination I had build in the beginning. Maka teman-teman kemudian menjadi tempat untuk berkeluh kesah. Kayanya temen yang saya ceritain soal ngeselinnya perpindahan fase ini banyak banget dan hampir semua bilang, "if it's not worth it then leave it,"
In the middle of that, I met a good friend of mine who said to me that, "you are actually pretty good in adapting, and anyway, rather than blaming people for doing what they have done, isn't it better to see why did they do that," I couldn't agree more to it. Because the more you listen, the more you understand, then the more chance you get to avoid specific circumstances.
And to quote finka, "Ada juga yang memang sengaja mencari makna itu sendiri dengan perjalanan yang ia pilih,".
Ada yang salah kalau menganggap there's a fault in our stars. I strongly believe that everything happens for a reason and that we don't meet people for nothing. Paling minimal adalah bisa bersyukur saat melihat orang dengan attitude ngeselin karena alhamdulillah kita pernah melihat itu, kita tidak suka dengan itu, dan diingatkan untuk tidak jadi orang seperti itu.
Isn't life too short to blame people for our circumstances?
...and when you feel like giving up, remember why you hold on for so long to be there in the first place...
and at the end, I choose to stay. And understanding has never been so endearing.
finally weekend!
I have to admit that even though it was inspiring and fun and boring and interesting and everything at the same time, I love my job right now. But sure I also love to make plans for weekend. I started it on Wednesday, my plans for weekend. Even more advanced, two weeks before the weekend.
And so, this weekend, my plan is to going out with friends from uni (and having a big big laugh for half a day though I should say that it started a bit rough) on Saturday and going to a book fair on Sunday (though I couldn't go with my friend like I had planned because the event wasn't as big as I predicted before) and I got a bonus for coming home earlier on Friday and bought a very interesting book by John Green : An Abundance of Katherines.
The book was super-highly recommended though maybe for most people the book may not be interesting because it contains math (and I think my brain had enough formula and sketches and graphs and papers and diagrams from my high school days) but it was a John Green's and he was like the wittiest writer ever (because I only read YA and fantasies, and so pardon my choice of reading and my claim because I don't read that much though I'm an avid reader).
And more books, yes because I went to the book fair.
Is it too much for a weekend? I think I have a supply for a full month considering my working hours. But anyway, isn't it joyful to have things to do, things to read just before you fall asleep?
happy reading :)
I have to admit that even though it was inspiring and fun and boring and interesting and everything at the same time, I love my job right now. But sure I also love to make plans for weekend. I started it on Wednesday, my plans for weekend. Even more advanced, two weeks before the weekend.
And so, this weekend, my plan is to going out with friends from uni (and having a big big laugh for half a day though I should say that it started a bit rough) on Saturday and going to a book fair on Sunday (though I couldn't go with my friend like I had planned because the event wasn't as big as I predicted before) and I got a bonus for coming home earlier on Friday and bought a very interesting book by John Green : An Abundance of Katherines.
The book was super-highly recommended though maybe for most people the book may not be interesting because it contains math (and I think my brain had enough formula and sketches and graphs and papers and diagrams from my high school days) but it was a John Green's and he was like the wittiest writer ever (because I only read YA and fantasies, and so pardon my choice of reading and my claim because I don't read that much though I'm an avid reader).
And more books, yes because I went to the book fair.
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| An Abundance of Katherines (John Green) - Bad Kitty (Michele Jaffe) - Princess of Gossip (Sabrina Bryan and Julia DeVilles) - Rumah Cokelat and Sand Castle (Sitta Karina) |
happy reading :)
