It's mixed feelings when I thought that maybe one friendly relationship has turns into something obligatory.

You know, those times when it wasn't the sum of unconscious effort anymore. When meeting each other started as an annoying discussion of who has no schedule and who always seems to be busy all the time. When buying souvenirs while traveling wasn't coming from a dear thought but an obligation. When it is even difficult to forgive, to take someone's bad nature for granted. To understand silently and to listen, not to reply.

This might be the result of the endless game of 'assign meaning to everything'. Maybe this is only me overthinking. Maybe what have I done wasn't a friendly trait either. Maybe us, just try to believe that this is one of those magical, effortless friendly relationship, when this was never it.

Mixed feelings, right?